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Soln
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   Posted 12/29/2010 2:15 PM (GMT -6)   
I'm not entirely sure what you want or need to her about my situation other than I am lost in myself. You need to know Anxiety, a Borderline personality, depression, eating disorders, they all seem to be the least of what I'm up against. And yes, I deal with them every day.

Anyways, your probably wondering why these are the least of my worries. Well, If it could be said that I was slipping before, then I suppose now it seems I'm in a landslide. I have no idea what to do. I'm flunking out of University. I got the news that I'm now on academic probation, "the first sign of dismissal" as they put it... I have no idea how I'm going to face my parents. they're going to be, well you know, ticked, heated, furious. The last thing I need, this is going to ruin my life. As if it wasn't already in shambles. I have 2 other problems like that in my life, same magnitude or greater, different circumstances. What did I ever do to get this bad karma, Damara, juju stuff... I don't know what to do. I'm scared, terrified as a matter of fact, there's no one to talk to, no one to trust.

My only escape is knocking myself out to sleep for hours. I know this isn't good, I'm not an idiot. I just don't know what else to do, there is no other way to get my mind off of everything. And even in these states I still think a million miles an hour. I just can't stop thinking, it scares me, makes me to stray away from reality itself. I don't know how to deal with myself anymore, I don't know what to do..
 
 
I am sorry that I had to edit your post but we aren't allowed to discuss illegal drugs, medical marijuana, suicide or self harm on this forum.
 
Thanks for understanding.
 
Hugs, Karen

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 12/29/2010 1:52:13 PM (GMT-7)


getting by
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   Posted 12/29/2010 2:56 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Soln,

And welcome to the HealingWell Depression forum. We aren't allowed to discuss illegal drugs on this forum, so I had to edit your post. It sounds to me like you could use some counseling. It really does help you to get yourself out of bed and face life. You are running at this point and that doesn't solve anything. Go slow. It takes time. But it sounds like you could be clinically depressed and you need some support at this point. Some direction would help too.

How old are you? You sound young. You have a lot of living to do at this point. You are depriving yourself by giong into a shell. I have done the same thing in the past. And still struggle with it especially in the winter months. It is hard for me to get going. Half the time I don't even get dressed. I stay in my pjs all day. That is no way to live. Not and be fullfilled and happy. So take it from experience. Reach out and find a therapist to talk to and get yourself back on track. It isn't too late for a fresh start.

Hugs, Karen
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Soln
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   Posted 12/29/2010 4:43 PM (GMT -6)   
sorry.

I will be turning 21 in a little over a month. I have seen counselors in the past, fairly recently also, they never seem to be helpful or able to understand the complexity of my situations and disorders. I have been turned down fron countless treatments for multiple co-occurring disorders, so ya, i have had enough of them.

getting by
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   Posted 12/29/2010 6:02 PM (GMT -6)   
It is hard to believe that you have been turned down treatment. Did they specify as to why? Did they think that your problems were too complex, if so they should have recommended you to somebody who could treat you instead of leaving you hanging. Coming here is good, but I don't know how much advice there is to offer. Though we do have members with complex issues. Keep posting and we will help you as much as we can, but you do have to be proactive in finding solutions too. Do look on the internet for books that could help you. You can often get them used and it s alot cheaper. I would study this as much as I could if I were you.

Do take care,

Hugs, Karen
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Soln
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   Posted 12/29/2010 6:24 PM (GMT -6)   
Some people gave a reason for not giving treatment, it usually is the complexity and the type of disorders that I have. And yes, they did leave me hanging in the dark. I'm continuing to try and find help in my area, but no luck so far. I also have a schizotypal personality, which apparently people don't like to treat very much.

stkitt
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   Posted 12/29/2010 6:35 PM (GMT -6)   
Soln,
 
I greeted you in A & P and the posts were the same so I left you a message there.
 
Kindly,
Kitt
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