2011, bring it on :)

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whathurtsthemost
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   Posted 12/30/2010 3:35 PM (GMT -6)   
as this year comes to an end, i really have realized how much of myself i was losing, how my life had gone upside down, and how i was continuing to go towards a downward spiral, a never ending ache in my gut, a feeling of hopelessness and depression i had no control over, i felt lost and that i would never find myself again, that i would never be happy let alone pretend to be, i felt like i was disappointing everyone that loved me, that i could never be good enough, and that i didn't deserve to be happy, I've felt miserable my whole life, but i finally took a step towards getting better, i followed my heart, something i have never done, i let my guard down, one of the most difficult things I've ever done, i learned that i had to love myself in order for me to love others, i have to fight in order to get to where i want to be, in order to be okay. this year 2011 will be my year to just let go of the extra baggage and to keep positive, to just be happy for the first time, have faith that the next medication my doctor prescribes will be the one that helps me achieve that, and just know that i have people in this world that love me and they deserve to see me happy. and finally i need to go visit my best friend's grave something i have avoided for far too long, it'll help me heal and i know that no matter what he's still with me in my heart , guiding my steps, and forever will be .


i hope you all have an amazing upcoming year <3

take care
<3

Post Edited (whathurtsthemost) : 12/30/2010 2:40:48 PM (GMT-7)


stkitt
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   Posted 12/30/2010 3:44 PM (GMT -6)   
 
What an awesome post and you have grown so much in 2010. 
 
I hope you do make it to visit your friend's grave but if you cannot remember this person with love and joy.
 
I agree with you, 2011,  Bring it on !!
 
Happy New Year,
 
Kitt

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whathurtsthemost
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   Posted 12/30/2010 3:47 PM (GMT -6)   
thank you so much Kitt :)

your words of encouragement mean a lot :)



i hope you have an amazing 2011 :)

and that you accomplish everything you want to accomplish :)

take care :)

getting by
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   Posted 12/30/2010 5:40 PM (GMT -6)   
That was an inspiring and uplifting post. With that attitude, things are going to change for the better. I too say, 2011 bring it on!!!

We are all facing it together, that helps.

Hugs, Karen
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theHTreturns...
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   Posted 12/30/2010 11:03 PM (GMT -6)   
WE ARE. ME BOTH SCARED AND EXCITED. IS THAT OK?

WITH COMPASSION, JAMIE
SCHIZO-AFFECTIVE DISORDER, EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER, BORDERLINE TYPE -AXIS 2 , BI-POLAR AFFECTIVE DISORDER AXIS 1

REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

Hibee
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   Posted 1/2/2011 12:50 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi

This has been such a positive and nice post to read, Sounds like things are beginning to click into place for you and I wish you all the best for 2011.

Take Care

Ben
I try not to worry about the future -- so I take each day just one anxiety attack at a time.

Diagnosed with:- Asperger's Syndrome, dyslexia, gad, sad, ocd, depression
Medication:- 300mg Lyrica, 10mg Escitalopram, Serequel 25-50mg, Naproxen 1000mg
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