I am sorry I had to edit your post but we are not allowed to discuss suicide here and the edit stops further discussion. But here are some resources for you.
National Suicide Hotline
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.Helpful Web Sites:
(listed by state)Suicidal.com
(includes Suicide Crisis Center
and Depression and Suicide
I hope that this helps some. It will give you somebody to talk to when you are feeling that way.
It sounds like you are sad because your daughter has found a boyfriend. You are starting to go through the empty nest syndrome I think. This is normal. She must be getting close to the age of leaving home. I am sure that frightens you. Or else you were very close and she seems to be distancing herself with this guy. But know she still loves you, she is just starting her own life. And that is normal too. We have to learn to accept this and know that they still care about us. They just love others too. So try not to get down from this and think of it as your daughter is growing. That is to be expected. I am sure that she loves you very much.
We are only into the third day of the new year. I would talk to the doctor about the way that you are feeling. And while I am thinking of it, you didn't get very much unemployment, have you applied for an extension. Some people got up to 26 months. You should get that also. That is a half of a year. I think it would do you good to work though. It would take your mind off of your problems. I love working when I can. It gives me a whole other life. I think it would benifit you to find another job. It may not be what you would normally like, but mediocer (sp) jobs can be fun too. They might not pay as much, but it helps. Also check with your job and see if they are hiring again. Things could have changed there and they might need some help. Just don't give up on yourself. You sound like a good person and capable so keep trying.
I hope that you feel better soon. Remember though we might feel crummy at home, getting out does us good. So try to get out of the house.
Keep posting and know that we all care.
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