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red lightening
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   Posted 1/3/2011 12:21 PM (GMT -6)   
I have been stable and active and well for 4 months and it has been incredibly wonderful.
Now for no environmental or outside causes I am coated in a black polluting fog of negativity,
irritability, and obsessive-perfectionistic-judgmental thinking.

I have been hospitalized twice for depression and I am scared I'm getting sick again. I have regular Pdoc appts. and am on mood stabilizer and anti-depressant. I work and 'used' to love my job....now I dread going. My husband bought me a new car
for Christmas but I'm not even excited about that. I am upset that my ex-husbands are mean to my 2 boys...they each saw their Dads at Christmas. I am angry and can't let go.

I am trying to control people, situations and things.

I am a sober, recovering alcoholis---2 years sober last month! But the A.A. meetings aren't helping. I don't want to read anymore. I don't want to change my meds...I can't take the stress right now. I am gaining all the weight I just lost and can't seem to care anymore. I have too much at stake to lose if I get really depressed and I am scared.

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   Posted 1/3/2011 12:43 PM (GMT -6)   
I think it sounds like you do need a med change. Even if you don't want to. What kind of mood stabilizer are you on? I take abilify. I use to take risperdol, but it caused weight gain for me. The abilify did a little, but not much. I am losing a little at a time. But very slowly.

I am happy that you have been two years sober. That is something to celebrate with non-alcoholic beverages of course. I don't drink much. I have had a six pack of beer in the refidgerator for two months. I give them away to company. lol... It is good to be sober, you learn to appreciate so much more than when you drink. You overlook a lot when you are drinking, I think. That was the way it was for me anyway. But I wasn't attentive to things that were important.

I really hope that you feel better soon. I hope that the doc and therapist can help you. A new car would make me very happy. I am sorry that you aren't enjoying it. Make sure they know that you appreciate it though. It was a fantastic jesture. I hope that you can be happy again soon.

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   Posted 1/3/2011 1:03 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi, Red,

I'm genuinely sorry that you're going through this, too. Be brave and stay away from alcohol no matter what. You already know that it makes an illness worse.

Too much acid-reacting foods can trigger depression. That means to eliminate any caffeine, chocolate or anything else containing caffeine. Since we're just beyond Christmas, I wonder if maybe you had too much indulgence in candy, rich foods (sugar-containing, fat, etc. and white flour products.) If so, please get them out of your diet right away and see how things improve within a week.

Diet is a huge factor in triggering these events. Please go online and
check out Acidity-reacting foods. Start by drinking strong lemonade which is highly alkaline and excellent for calming the body. Keep with high levels of water, lemons, green vegetables and salads until your
feeing tone improves. It will, believe me.

Take care, and please let us know when things begin to improve. Karen's idea that you may need a med change is on target, I think, too.

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   Posted 1/3/2011 2:28 PM (GMT -6)   
Thank you both...what a tremendous support you are!

Getting By...maybe I do need a med change, much as I don't want to. I
think I'll wait and see how things go until I see my Pdoc. on the 18th of Jan.
I used to be on Abilify but gained 50 lbs. so I went off of it because I can't be
happy when I'm fat. I am on Lamictal and Celexa which has worked great for 4 months.
My meds seem to work well for about 4-6 months and then stop. Then I have to go through the
dreaded med change. I am letting go though and trying to change my negative thinking. I am
trying to turn this around.

It's Genetic...you're right I have totally blown my protein/vegetable diet. I have gone back to
3 cups of coffee every morning and 'red' Cokes. I am starting my new food regeime today. I think
I will switch to 1 cup of black tea every morning until I get off the coffee; then try to eliminate that too.
I will stop drinking Cokes today. i will have a salad for lunch. I have only today to start over. I am the only
one who can change my life.

Thanks...feelin' better.

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   Posted 1/3/2011 5:37 PM (GMT -6)   
I'm so glad you're beginning to feel better. It takes a few days
to return to your normal calm, content self. Keep at it, Red, and you'll
be fine. The caffeine is the major problem, usually, then, it's  the
fat in the diet--the fatty acids. You should start taking the Omega 3
and Omega 6 acids which are not at all bothersome to you; in fact,
they may help ease the depression. Just don't use the butter, fried
foods, etc.

Really glad you're better.

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Post Edited (It's Genetic) : 1/4/2011 7:41:59 AM (GMT-7)


getting by
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   Posted 1/3/2011 5:44 PM (GMT -6)   
You are right on target. I know about the caffiene, I drink it too and I know that I should go back to my lemon water. I use to drink a hot cup of lemon water every morning and lemon water on ice all day long. It detoxifies the liver and is giving you vitamin C. I think the eating change will do you good too. You would be surprised what food allergies can do to a person. And gluten in general. IG had some good information for you there.

Keep up the good thinking process. It must suck when your meds stop working. Do you think an increase would help. I had to up my abilify and my pristiq after a few months, but now they are working fine. and it has been quite a while since I have changed the dose. I would discuss it with the doc when you see them. I think going up would be easier to deal with than switching. Switching is hard to do at times. I did okay going off of effexor and on to pristiq. But I went really slow and took both at the same time for awhile.

I am glad that you are feeling better. Your post was hearwarming and inspiring. Take care.

Hugs, Karen
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givinguponit24
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   Posted 1/23/2011 7:21 PM (GMT -6)   
Caffeine and chocolate are supposed to help with depression It's Genetic.
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   Posted 1/23/2011 8:21 PM (GMT -6)   
They do, momentarily, Red, but they both cause a let down following
several hours after use.

Alcohol has a calming effect initially, but it soon turns into depression, irritability, desire for more, etc. It's like saying things look good on the surface, but watch out for what's hidden: the loss of feeling tone later.
The use of caffeine and chocolate is just the substitution of one drug for another.  They both are addictive and both can cause headaches, irritability, even nausea upon withdrawal.  I wouldn't touch them except very rarely and then only in small amounts.  If you want something really calming, try lemonade freshly made and with only a little sugar (no sugar substitutes, please).
 

IG

Post Edited (It's Genetic) : 1/23/2011 7:31:37 PM (GMT-7)


givinguponit24
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   Posted 1/23/2011 8:56 PM (GMT -6)   
Or I can very raarely have a cigar not saying that everyone should do this but its a bad habit and sometimes it does help with stress. Bad habit though.
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   Posted 1/23/2011 10:58 PM (GMT -6)   
Would that a good cigar were just a smoke, Givinguponit24, but that's not the case, as you know. Tobacco use causes cancer of the lungs,
throat, mouth, etc., not to mention damage to many other parts of the body.

Believe that? Read the 1963 Attorney General's Report on use of tobacco and its hazards. That book stopped me from smoking. Thank heavens.

I. G.

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   Posted 1/24/2011 3:08 AM (GMT -6)   
Red,

Be proud of your sobriety! When you get feeling down, rejoice in the success you've had with alcohol. My mother battled that as has my older brother and myself. It is the most destructive addiction I can think of.

Be PROUD! Caffeine is often an issue with me as I love chocolate and always wake up with a coffee, but I have seen what a great difference it makes when I stop for a while. It's mostly a case of willpower for me.

Anyhow, discuss meds with your doc and try to stay positive.

Brian
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   Posted 1/24/2011 9:39 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi, Brian,

I can't tell you how much I appreciate your posting on the problem with alcohol. I agree with you 100% that it may be the most destructive habit there is.

It is considered such a social must, when in reality it's anything but social. As a matter of fact, it's just what you suggest: it is highly anti-social. I have a difficult time convincing people that the use of alcohol is so extremely detrimental, not only to oneself, but also to others exposed to it, as well (not to mention the damage that it can do to unborn children of parents who drink heavily).

Our society is geared to consumption--everything included, practically.
It takes a quiet, almost solitude-like thinking to begin to see the damage alcohol does. I think scientists may discover one day that alcohol may play a big role in gene damage that contributes to inherited bipolar illness. One doctor years ago wrote about the role
that grains play in bipolar illness. Many patients have a severe grain allergy. (And from what else is alcohol derived? Grains (recognizing that it may be derived from other foods like potatoes, etc. ).  I will keep repeating this every time I recognize an internet friend who sees the real truth about alcohol ingestion.

Take care; keep advocating the omission of alcohol in the diet, please.

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Post Edited (It's Genetic) : 1/24/2011 9:14:58 AM (GMT-7)


getting by
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   Posted 1/24/2011 10:17 AM (GMT -6)   
IG,

You express a very good point. It is hard for people to understand all of the detrimental things about alcohol. It increases depression even if you feel good at the time. And you don't even have to get a buzz for this to occur. I think that it is one of the worst drugs for a person to consume, especially if they are suffering from depression. It has ruined many lives.

I really enjoyed reading your post.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 1/26/2011 1:40 PM (GMT -6)   
Alchohol is terrible for you. Even though it increases appetite, and depresses you, it is good for you're blood but toxic for the brain. Alcohol is a drug and should be used in moderation at age 21 or past that.
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