I posted this in the anxiety section. Maybe someone on this board has an idea.
Hi Everyone. I wasn't sure whether to post here or in the Depression forum. I've been taking Xanax, .5 to sleep for about year, suffered a lot of anxiety and insomnia. I had a lot of health problems last year and took Ativan for a while. My doc gave me the Xanax but I never really used it other than night, and not everynight either. I've been sick again lately with no real idea why, all my neurologist test came back good so it's a "see you in two months" kind'a deal. That alone has cause me great stress. I find the Xanax works wonders for my nerve pain and it keeps me calm and in a much better mood. As of late, I've been using about 2 mg a day. I know that's not a lot but I feel like I need it right now, keeps the pain away and keeps my fears away that I'm suffering from some horrible fate, which I'm probably not but that doesn't stop my mind from going there. I'm wondering if it's the muscle relaxer part of the Xanax that takes away the pain or the way it calms my overactive CNS or what. I don't want to veer into high doses of this stuff for too long. For now, it works, but I know the ween off can be pretty bad news. I don't like Ativan, it makes me nervous. The Xanax makes me feel normal. Maybe I should be asking for some antidepressant or something, I am depressed by all this medical crap, in addition to the other struggles I face: mother of a disabled child, bought a new house, struggling business, personal stuff about not being healthy and not being where I want to be in life at my ripe old age of 41.
Maybe I need an antidepressant and I'd love any recommendations that might have the same impact as Xanax but without the big gun side effects. I love that centered and calm feeilng from Xanax amid all this chaous. I'm not sure I wouldn't have a breakdown without it and that scares me.
Should I keep taking this or ask for something else to try? FYI - Neuro wants me to take 300 mg of Neurotin but it made me shakey and depressed. I hate the idea of taking anything that adds to my problems. I'm not sure if I should do this or not. But, everytime that pain comes back or my muscle twitches and hurts, it immediately kicks off depressing thoughts because I just want to be well. At least with the Xanax, I don't have a problem until it wears up, but I can see that I might need to up the dose if I keep doing this much longer, I'm already kind'a doing that, which makes me concerned.