Welcome to the forum. I just took a couple of words out of your post as I didn't want it to become topic of discussion. But I agree with Frances, talk to somebody about
it that you can trust.
Talking here really helps too. We are among friends here. This is a great forum. Know that dreams are just that, dreams. It doesn't mean anything in true life, unless you have preminition dreams, which I use to have. But I am not as in tune with my thoughts as I use to be. So I don't have them anymore. But I dream a lot and in color.
Sounds like you may have a lot on your mind. You may even want to consider counseling. It gives us support and direction.
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