Hello, Andy Bean,
The forum members are giving you the best they know to say, and they're right. Here's the way I see your situation:
Any chemical imbalance in the brain is going to cause the symptoms you describe so vividly: the fatigue, hearing noises, irritability, anquish,
fear, etc. The major step you need to take now to relieve all these
symptoms is to see a specialist in depression and let him diagnose
and prescribe for you the proper medication to restore the chemical
imbalance you're experiencing. There is no reason to feel embarrassed or frightened by making an appointment and visiting with a compassionate and mature psychiatrist. He (or she) is going to know exactly what is wrong and which medication you need to get back the content feeling tone that you need.
In the meantime, to help yourself, stop eating or drinking anything that has
caffeine in it, and do not use alcohol to relieve the symptoms you have because both of them make the illness worse.
I'd like to know how you get along once you've begun treatment. I think you'll probably feel 100% better, have a better relationship with your children, your job, and with people around you.
Thank you for posting, and we'd all like to help if possible.