I'm a college student in West Virginia. I have never felt so alone in my life. I am adjusted to the fast-pace bustle of Los Angeles, and going to school in West Virginia has off-set my brain chemicals so much that I now bellyache and weep almost on a weekly basis. I'm on Lamictal for my depression, but this dull, drab, lifeless town is offering me no motivation or happiness. The people here are genuine, yes, but the culture is lacking and, not to sound demeaning, but the whole town feels like a retirement center. I am on a pre-med plan, aspiring to medical school, but living here and feeling so alone and isolated is hindering things. West Virginia is such a beautifull state comprising of nature, greenery, rivers, wildlife, and refreshing, pure air. The problem is, my mind stays on fast track, because it's the only way I can maintain momentum in motivation to get things done like long hours of studying, athletic maintenance, etc. And to top it off, I have NO FRIENDS. NONE, ZERO. I am an outsider that is having a hard time integrating into the community. I often get stared at. I am a normal looking guy. There's nothing unusual about
me other than maybe the fact I dress urbanly and do everything fast-paced. I'm white like most everyone else here is, so it's not a matter of race. I'm very congenial with people when I meet them, but it's never anything more than a handshake. No one ever mentions going out for coffee, going to a football game or anything like that. This tells me something is wrong WITH ME. Maybe everyone senses that I'm depressed deep down, prompting their instincts to avoid me as not to affect THEIR mental status. I don't know. I just know that I feel so detached from the rest of the world. If anyone has any free consolation or suggestions, please help me out.