I'm glad you felt comfortable posting again. As Karen said, nearly all the posters here in the forum are kind, compassionate, supportive souls -- and the mods like her do a fantastic job of protecting us from the few that aren't by quickly editing their posts & requesting intervention by the Site Administrator (Peter Waite) to lock or block the member.
There are insurance options for the unemployed that are free or cheap. Here's a link for that: www.ehow.com/how_1000524_health-insurance-unemployed.html
. That link includes Medicaid, State Insurance Pools & other gov't programs. I have several friends who take advantage of public assistance & they are over 19yo -- there is help, you just need to know where to look. ;)
If you cannot get insurance of any kind, know there ARE options. Karen described the sliding scale or charity care programs offered by some psychiatrists, therapists & hospitals. Also, you can always call 911 or go to the hospital if you are feeling suicidal. They are legally obligated
to treat you regardless of whether you have insurance or any money at all to pay for treatment.
ions, check out /www.pparx.org/en/prescription_assistance_programs
. They also list FREE CLINICS where you can potentially get evaluated for depression, PTSD or whatnot & get script
s or free meds.
okay, well enough about
how to get counseling and/or meds. I know that you're angry 'cause you were given a raw deal. I was too. I was doing better for a while, but then started listening to my family again & went spiraling downward -- began to feel like @#$% , thinking about
dying/suicide, hating everything, feeling angry & hopeless nearly all the time. They are so negative, condescending & hateful towards me. Why do I let them continue to torment me?!
I came across a great website a couple days ago. www.angriesout.com/index.htm#grownups
I started with the exercises on Selfishness & Narcissism in Family Relationships since those applied most to my situation growing up & the continuing dynamic even now. I've done some of the other ones for adults as well (some are better than others) & also even checked out some of the stuff for kids. It's written VERY simply, but since I never really learned how to manage emotions as a child, I've found some of it is helping me learn how to not be so bothered by the stupid, hurtful things my family still says to me -- and also how to manage without crying or screaming when some random person says or does something that triggers a memory of past abuse.
Not sure if it will help you or not, but I've been pretty happy with it, so I though I would share. Hope it helps.