Ok so I have never posted on anything before so please forgive me if I dont do it properly. Plus I'm the world's worse speller.
To start my story off. ( Guess thats how its done) Im a 28 y/o single mother of a 18 month old lil boy. When I got pg w my son. My life was the happiest I believe it had ever been. It wasnt perfect by all means and wasnt headed in the right direction either. I work 6 days a week as a bartender and party when I was working. I was told in my early 20s that I couldnt have childern but my lil miracle came. I had to quit my job b/c of the high rish pg. And ended up moving back in w my parents. Now my dad and I have never seen eye to eye on anything ( been told its b/c we are so much like) but we do love each other. After giving birth to my son. I started working as a dispatcher at the sheriff office that my dad is 2nd in conmand at. Very stressful job. and I dont make much over min wage. My son's father doesnt have anything to do w him. NO support at all. Which is better then him having rights to my son in my book. Well I have dealt w things to where I am at the point of just giving up. At home everything has turned into a constant battle and at work also. I have made comments about moving out. where my mom has treathen to take my lil boy. Says they can provide for him better. Which isnt a lie. They both work and Dad has 2 jobs. So as far as money goes they can. They do not mistreat him if anything he is spoiled rotten. But still I am is MOTHER. And the thought of losing him as drove me so far into a serve depression that I drove a wedge between I wonderful man I had been seeing for the last 6 months and my best friend of 14 years. I lashed out at them and said awful mean hurtful horrible things to them. I cant control my emotions anymore. The man Ive been seeing atleast is still talking to me, but my bestie has answered her phone or email that I have sent her. Sometimes I just wana crawl in the corner and disappear. Thank for reading my post and letting me vent. I completely lost and unsure of what to do next.