What you have to learn is to not need attention. And counseling teaches us to love ourselves and be satisfied with life the way that it is instead of always needing something more. You also have to accept what you did and accept the consequences. It is hard, and it takes time. First off you have to forgive yourself. We all makes mistakes, just some are more life altering than others.
Here are a couple of sites for you to try. They are for depression and might help you.
I hope that this helps you. Keep your chin up. Things will work out for the best.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies