First off welcome to HW! and as far as that website that might help well, you're at it! There is a great group of folks here who are always ready to give you any support you need. Sorry you're feeling so down right now, but its probably time that you told someone about this, its the only way to get better. Can you talk to a therapist or councelor? Its a good place to start, you don't have to tell your family right away but at some point you should because they can be a great support system. We are all here for you if you need us, keep us updated
PS - i'm sure your not just a dumb blonde, i bet you're a great person stuck it a bad place right now.