This is my first post here, but I have been a lurker for a few months
I guess I am just looking for some advice and/or encouragement. My husband of 11 years suffers from depression. We got a diagnosis over a year ago. We had gone to see a marriage counselor and she recommended he see someone on his own, so he did and he was prescribed Zoloft. When he takes his meds he is fine, but there are times that he goes off of them and those are horrible!
Our arguments have been escalating over the past year. One time he grabbed me by my arms and I told him if he ever laid a hand on me again, I was calling the police. He told me he grabbed me because I wasn't acting right. He has not pulled that stunt again.
The arguments we have often come out of the blue and are often about
the same topics.
The last argument we had was almost two weeks ago. When we argue we give each other the silent treatment for the most part afterwards. I have found that talking to him usually causes more arguments. The silent treatment lasted from Sunday until Friday. On Sunday, the day of our argument, he called me a nasty name. He also drew on his office wall (like a little kid would do) some pictures, cryptic information (his name, ssn, dob and drivers license number) and a nasty picture and nasty words directed at me. I have not said a word about
the picture to him and he has not mentioned it either.
On Friday, I told him I was tired of not talking and that I wanted to put it behind us but I wanted him to apologize first for calling me out of my name. He said that I was stupid for asking that and he was not apologizing. I dropped it and we talked a bit over the weekend and hung out in the same room together (we haven't slept together in the same room since the argument).
We have an appointment with a counselor on Thursday this week. The fact that he called me a nasty name and the fact that he will not apologize for it is just eating at me. He also told me he dropped all of his classes, I was so mad about
that. I find out later he lied, I asked him why and he said "why not".
I have let a lot go and have forgiven him for a lot, but this name thing...I cannot get over it at all. Everything he accuses me of doing to him (not respecting him, being selfish, etc.) he has done to me, but I don't call him out on it, I keep my mouth shut and keep it in, but it is so hard. I am crying now as I am writing this, I cry just thinking about
it. I emailed him yesterday and told him I do not want to celebrate Valentines day this year, I did not say why and he did not ask. I am just tired and frustrated right now and starting to be worried for my safety as well as the safety of my home and pets. He has punched walls before and one of his favorite things to argue about
are our cats, or my cats I should say.
But I digress, I guess what I am trying to ask is this: When we go to our appt on Thursday, I was planning on making a list of all the stuff he puts me through and reading it then. I also wanted to take a picture of the drawing he did. I am hoping we can get him to start seeing a counselor regularly and taking meds regularly.
Do you guys think it would be a good idea to take the list and the picture. I don't want him to feel put on the spot in a way, but in a way I do because he is the one responsible for all of this and I am at my breaking point. I also plan on seeking individual counseling for myself.
Any advice you can offer is much appreciated :)
Edit: I gave your thread a title.
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