at school I really want to hang out with my so called "cool" girlfriends. But somehow I have a feeling that I am always not invited. Lately too, I have been looking in the mirror and I realize that I am very unnatractive and very fat for my hight. I think that is why they hate me. I love them so much, and I dont want to leave them.
I was in the bathroom today, and two of them came in and I realized they were talking about me and how much i am annoying and how much they hate me. I really wasnt suprised because I already new this. but for some reason, everytime I look back at it I burst out in tears.
I talked to one girl once and seriously told her I felt like i dont want to live anymore. She replied that this was my problem and I if I dont want to grow up, than that idea wont be so bad.
I feel like I am ugly, uunatractive, and I lack personality. I am really depressed and so tired of my life. i dont want to die, I just want things to get better.
Help me pleaseeeeeee!!!!