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Rusty Shackleford
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   Posted 3/4/2011 6:52 AM (GMT -6)   
First of all. I would like to say that I am a 37 yr old male who has struggled with depression for as long as I can remember. It has come and gone on different levels. Medications have been an utter disaster. I was also diagnosed at 30 with ADHD/ADD although we all knew I had that! I believe you could say there is some OCD tendencies to go along with. I am married with a 16 yr old son. There are some deep childhood issues that keep rearing it's ugly head lately. I am having the hardest time working through them. I have no support system surrounding me. Not one good friend. I gave up all those "booze buddies" in the past. I try to get some kind of support or feedback from my wife but that has not went well in 17 yrs. I try to reach out to my step-father (who adopted me young) and mother, my 2 adult half brothers but we are not a close family. I have been stuck at home unemployed since bout the 1st of December. The days are long, lonely and lifeless. The small home we live in is less than desirable. I have been slowly fixing things up where money allows. Ohh yes, the money. Falling behind further on everything. I am to the point where if employment is found I would have an extremely difficult time working. I have not left the house in 2 weeks? I have shut off completely. No motivation or desire. I feel worthless because I cannot provide like a good man should. I am not suicidal because I would never do that to my son. I do admit that I think about it. I have never been a quitter. Just struggle on best I can.

getting by
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   Posted 3/4/2011 7:58 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Rusty,

Welcome to the HealingWell Depression forum. You have joined a great group of members here.

Please don't let yourself feel less than adequit (sp). You are a good human being. You are just going through a rough patch right now. Find solace in knowing that you are a good person and have the best intentions. Not having work is hard. Keep looking for another job. They are few and far between, but they are out there. The right thing will come along soon. Have patience with yourself.

Are you seeing anybody for your depression. A psychiatrist or a counselor? I highly recommend them both. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. It sounds like you have a wonderful family.

Hugs, Karen
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livenlaugh
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   Posted 3/4/2011 9:29 AM (GMT -6)   
I think that it is hard, especially for men who feel that they should provide for their families in this economy. And depression can result in this. You aren't inadequate. You are experiencing a hard time in your life right now. Find a therapist that can help you through this. Sometimes talking to someone objective does wonders for some people. It helps me alot! Depression imobilizes me sometimes and the thing that keeps me going are my kids and that there are better days ahead. I really try to force myself out and distract myself but it is hard! I keep plugging away at it. And this forum has helped alot. Keep posting and let us know how you are. Good luck to you.
Take care of yourself!
Lisa

Rusty Shackleford
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   Posted 3/4/2011 9:35 AM (GMT -6)   
I thank you both for the input. I will keep my chin up and try to do what needs to be done to get this under control. Have been job hunting but may be out for a bit yet. Unfortunately going to need tendon repair on a bad digit I crushed this winter. I will spend some quality time with you all before going back on the road for work (if I find it!). :)

theHTreturns...
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   Posted 3/4/2011 9:42 AM (GMT -6)   
all the best rusty, hang in there, things will pick up for you. yes head up, chin up!!!!! keep strong, and know that we care. with compassion, jamie.
SCHIZO-AFFECTIVE DISORDER, EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER, BORDERLINE TYPE -AXIS 2 , BI-POLAR AFFECTIVE DISORDER AXIS 1

REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

livenlaugh
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   Posted 3/4/2011 10:42 AM (GMT -6)   
It is difficult to take the first step and you have done that! I am also job hunting for a part time job.
Be kind to yourself and enjoy the small stuff.
Lisa

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   Posted 3/4/2011 10:44 AM (GMT -6)   
P.S. I also have been diagnosed with ADD in my 30's and it did have an affect on my life once I became an adult and had to handle multiple responsibilities and ADD with depression can go hand in hand...
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