Hi all, I'm back because I think it is a good idea to keep working on helping myself, receiving help from others, and moving on. I have had some really crazy ups and downs since I last posted, many things are still kinda crazy at the moment...but I am doing better at dealing with things, well some of them. A very close friend of mine died one month ago, she had just recontacted me 3 or so weeks prior, and we had been spending time together. I cannot regret that time, because it was a blessing and a gift to me before she was taken....but in that time (I had known her for years before, we had just drifted apart) I fell for her, and hard. She was a person like NO other, amazing, caring, beautiful, understanding, intelligent, and was the type that is cool with hanging out with your friends. I am still struggling quite a lot with that, I can't think about her much without tearing up to some extent...so I know there is still a lot of need to get out or it will just begin to fester. My problem is finding out how to extract it, or if i want to, or if I even can.
I also very much enjoyed the chances I had in the past to lend my two cents on any given subject. I had luckily been able to help a number of people, and hope to be able to do so again. I shouldn't let my talents stay buried, and I really love the people here :). I am glad to be back, and look forward to talking to everyone.