i usually frequent another forum but wanted to check out depresson and came upon your thread which i briefly read through.
I just want to say that you need to set boundaries with your husband - as hard as it is... and you need support in setting those boundaries with him. i feel you need to change tac with him as he is totally selfish and not caring about your feelings.. i agree... see how h e feels if you put the shoe on the other foot so to speak.
i would recommend you read books from 'Cloud & Townsend' who are well known and respected authors in the field of psychiatry and are fervant christians - although you do not need to share that faith to be helped by their books.
Karen: 49 years old
1997: Diagnosed IBS
2003: Pelvic Floor repair
2006: STARR procedure - mucosal prolapse/ODS/diagnosed slow transit constipation
2007: Sigmoid resection (MRI showed twist) - made colonic inertia worse (cleared obstruction though)
March 2009: Total colectomy with ileorectal join and loop ileostomy
23 Sept 2010: Ileostomy reversal - not going well