Posted 3/11/2011 6:22 AM (GMT -7)
First off, I feel kind of selfish for crying about my problem after reading some of the other posts, but I am at a loss for how I feel and desperately need advice.
First off, I have kidney failure. I was diagnosed at 16, went on dialysis then had a transplant at 17. I have been on hemo dialysis for the last 5 years now. One of my dialysis techs recently went through a seperation a year and a half ago, during the time she contacted me asking me if I wanted company... Obviously she wanted sex. She is not allowed to date her patients, and we knew this. It was just suppose to be two lonely people having one night of fun. It did not turn out that way.
She started contacting me more frequently through txt and phone calls, and we started spending time together, but never out in public for she was afraid of us getting caught and her losing her job. She eventually said that she was developing feelings for me, and then in time she said that she loved me. So, we have had this relationship a secret from her coworkers, and only ever going out in public together when we went out of town to see her family. It was rough on both of us, but when you love somebody you are willing to suffer through some things with the hopes of it getting better.
She has been acting differently and I knew that something was up. I found out that she cheated on me 6 months ago, and possibly prior to that. I have been hurt before and I told her before we even started dating, that if she was ever unhappy and felt like she was going to cheat, then please spare my heart and just end it. She said that she would never hurt me like that. Lied.
Anyhow, she broke up with me through the phone 2 weeks ago, and found out through a coworker of hers that she is already seeing somebody. I helped buy her children school cloths, Christmas presents when the deadbeat father wouldn't support his own children, got her car fixed even though mine is calling apart, flowers every 2 weeks and rubbed her head to put her to sleep for a year and a half! She acts as if this is all no big deal, and it is bothering me! I am not sure if I should be the better person and just let it go, or get her fired for taking advantage of me! I always give my all in a relationship, just to get shat on. I am so lost on this world! I always give everybody what they want, everybody comes to me when they have a problem, but I never have anybody to go to... I feel so alone.