I would like to welcome you to the depression forum and also let you know that somebody here does care. I will have to edit your post but wanted to post to you right away so that you know that you are cared about. Here are a few sites that might help you.
National Suicide Hotline
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.
Helpful Web Sites:
Suicide Hotlines (listed by state)
Suicidal.com (includes Suicide Crisis Center and Depression and Suicide)
I want you to know that you don't need to worry about pleasing others all of the time. You are a human too. You need to please you. I don't mean selfish or anything like that. I just mean to love yourself and do good things for yourself.
I want to get this out to you now. So I am going to stop here and post this.
Take care, keep posting...
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies