You truly have my sympathy, BipolarMe3,
Your children are suffering now with you. I hope so that you will
take your courage to a medical specialist and see that you can free
yourself and your children from the current environment. Your
psychiatrist may be able to stabilize your emotions so well that you
feel you must change your life for the sake not only of yourself but
for your children, as well.
Getting By is right. There is legal help for you. More than once in
my opinion you have been in a position to have him incarcerated. No
man in his right mind hits a pregnant woman. That's grounds for the
"slammer", no questions asked.
Take very good care of yourself and seek help, please.
You keep posting when you need an outlet. In the meantime, I would
like to suggest that you look up some sites online that help victims of a psychopath to know how to be willing to get out or make the changes necessary to recover from exposure to a psychopath. Frankly, these people are tyrants and need to be brought back into control by trained medical personnel who might have a modicum of influence in their behavior, although I suspect that prison is the only thing that will
ultimately deter this personality type from destructiveness. You are
suffering from a post-traumatic stress syndrome, and it won't go away until some changes are made, in my view; but I'm not a doctor and you need professional help to recover from the stress, I think.
I'm going to say a prayer for you. Keep us aware of how you are
working on recovery. It's one step at a time, as they say here.
It's Genetic
Post Edited (It's Genetic) : 3/20/2011 3:15:53 PM (GMT-6)