Welcome to the HealingWell Depression forum. I hope that you can get some guidance and help here. Are you going to any counseling? I think that it would help you to be strong and independant so that you would be able to move on.
I am so sorry to hear about your current situation. I hope that you get help with the drinking too. Remember that alcohol depresses us. So it is extra bad when we drink. And it drives us down. I have a person that I know that is in the hospital for alcohol because it has hurt his liver. They had to put him unconscious to detoxify him. I don't think he has very long to live. He drank vodka too. He always came in every day and got a bottle when I was working. I worked afternoons. But I guess that wasn't the first bottle of the day. He always got little ones, and I never saw him drunk. But after I stopped working, I guess he got really bad. I am only sharing this with you because I do care. I hope that you can start healing soon. You sound like a good person and I hate to see you sad. Do keep posting and know that we all care about you.
You will make it. You are stronger than you think, and wiser too.
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