Run away as fast as you can from an abusive relationship, no matter what the abuse. You may be sad now because I am sure you had some good times, but you were together long enough to see the real "person". No one deserves to be treated that way and the longer you stay in it the worse it will get. Also, men that behave in an abusive manner, also know the right things to say when they are trying to make up with you, Like elling you how difficult you are, it is called control and manipulation. Don't buy into it, you deserve better.