Thanks everyone for your thoughts. Tiger is right, for some of us positivity runs low when you have fought depression for so many years. I get the whole project thing and I do agree but depression is a f... monster and takes charge of your feelings even when you think the most positive thoughts ever.
I actually had to take and sell some of my jewelry today to put gas in my car, didnt feel very positive doing that but on the positive side, I do have a little money now that I didnt have before, right?
I have had many ups and downs in my life and as a HW member, my fellow members will agree that I struggle alot and I dont know if it will ever get better.
Depressing, I know but I only speak the truth.
"To love someone is nothing. To be loved by someone is something. To love and be loved by someone is everything."