Alright well I got through today pretty well, actually had a pretty great day at work. I still felt a lil groggy during work at times and definetly found myself lost in retarded deep thought about how I felt, but I was able to get through them pretty well. I really think that the therapist showing me that information in his book about how experiencing depersonalization AND questioning your sanity is totally uncharacteristic of someone who is schizophrenic went a long way. So now when I get these annoying feelings I atleast am able to (for the most part) believe it's just anxiety/depression.
I'm trying to put my finger on the pulse of this problem though, and just can't seem to find it. I'm beginning to think that my anxiety feeds my depression, I don't think I'd be too depressed if I wasn't so anxious. Maybe that's a false belief but it's just I seem to recognize my truly down and out moments are normally when I'm in the middle of, or after a panic attack. Which I just found out from my therapist that I've been having a lot, because I never really get the body shakes/heart palpitations/sweating, I just get extremely self conscoius and fearful and my mind races totally out of control.
Anyways, I'm trying to limit just how much I check on this forum from doctors orders. It's hard to kick the habit though, you guys have helped me a lot when I really get at my worst and I appreciate that and it means a lot. That and I honestly think this forum does help, but I agree with him that I definetly was checking on here way too much. It's just kind of hard when nothing else in your life matters besides feeling better you know? Hard to distract yourself.
But to get back to the main point of this post....anyone have any tips on what to do during a panic attack? I get so worried when I get the head tingling/head pressure. It makes me feel like I'm floating and then I start thinking really weird thoughts like "oh my god I'm floating" "i'm not here" "i'm not in control" and I start getting irritiable. Trying to get a handle on it but it seems that I just dont have the ability to handle this yet, I just let the physical feelings take over my emotional state. The depersonalization is so darn bad sometimes, it's so aggravating. Giving xanax or something like that some serious consideration.