And welcome to the forum. I don't know why you are angry, but you acknowledge it and are seeking counseling, so you are headed in the right direction. Just acknowledging it is a huge step. And once you do that you can move farther and take steps to changing your behavior.
I am glad that you posted here. I think coming here is going to help you a lot. But keep persueing the counseling, it really helps a lot. I go and many of us here go also.
Keep posting and let us know how things are going.
As for knowing who you are, I think that comes with age and experiencing things. Even the bad things build character. So don't worry about that, we all feel that way at one time or another.
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