Welcome to the Depression forum. To be honest, you can't force a repressed memory. The mind has a way of protecting us and this memory wont come back until the mind can deal with it. Your mind is a very powerful thing. I went to a counselor to work on it. And she helped me a lot. I would suggest you see a counselor to help you. Just remember that your mind is going to continue protecting you and it will come back when you are ready.
Keep posting and we will try to help you through this as much as we can. You could be suffering from ptsd too and that is a good reason to seek therapy.
Best wishes to you on your healing journey.
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