Who have i become?

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soontobe
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Date Joined Apr 2011
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   Posted 4/15/2011 1:50 AM (GMT -6)   
 
 I use to be religious, go to church every sunday. I use to laugh and have fun, but my spirit is broken and I am no longer the person I use to be. Everynight before I go to bed now I hurt myself! NOT PHSYICALLY but emotionally and spiritually. I've just moved to a new place a year ago, thats how fast I have changed. Everynight before I go to bed, I go online with my webcam. Entering these chatrooms where I show my body to older men. Also I go to this place where i hook up with older men and have sex with them. It has become an addiction and I want it to end. I don't want to go to bed anymore, begining to fall asleep feeling like I am worthless, feeling like that nobody will love me, that I will become this creature that only craves for the dark lust of sex instead of the enjoyfulness of a partnership. I need help to get rid of this dark soul that has a hold of me, and i need to be myself again, instead of beating myself up again, thinking i am a horrible person.

getting by
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Date Joined Sep 2007
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   Posted 4/15/2011 7:16 AM (GMT -6)   
I think that you need help with this addiction. This is almost inappropriate for this forum, so please be careful what you post. This is a family friendly forum, and if it can't be viewed by minors it is n't allowed. But I feel that your problem needs to be addressed. What you are doing is hurting you. Are you using condoms to prevent std's? I sure do hope so. Please talk to somebody. A psychiatrist or counselor. They oculd help you. You just need to learn to love yourself and you will stop. How old are you? Just curious. Keep coming here for help.

Know that we all care about you. You are a prescious human being. You deserve to treat yourself better, I wish that there was more I could say to help you. Take care of you.

Hugs, Karen
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