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BrianJ (bne)
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   Posted 4/15/2011 4:57 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello,

a few here have some idea of what the past 2 years have brought me. For all others, suffice to say I went through my own private hell. Well, my life has completely transformed.

Since early April I have found someone who I really love and loves me for precisely who I am - faults and all! I have a new home to coincide with my job relocation, my finances are actually in the black for the first time in a decade, I actually have a concrete plan for my retirement and have found the woman I want to spend it with.

I have managed to make a clean break from the toxic relationships of my past and feel healthier than ever. I still suffer from the same old ailments but my outlook is so positive, nothing gets me down. Whenever I feel the old scripts coming back (I'm not good enough, I don't deserve happiness, I'm a bad person, etc) I'm able to dispel them quickly and recognise them for what they are - FALSE!

I've managed to let go of FEAR - False Evidence Appearing Real - and DO the things I want or need to. I hope this serves as some small assurance to others that no matter how bad things get and no matter how impossible it seems that you'll get through, everything WILL WORK OUT!!

The blackness is NOT all there is - we just can't see the light through the fog. Never give up, always give the most you can, and accept help when it's offered. Too much recovery time is wasted when we try to do it all on our own.

I still take all my meds - I can't get by without them - and still need to make very conscious decisions but I KNOW I will survive, and more I will THRIVE!

Live life now, for it does have an expiration date.

Be proud - we are the strong ones!

Brian

Faunts
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   Posted 4/15/2011 5:00 AM (GMT -6)   
I am glad you are getting better. :)

I am hoping maybe I will be able to change but I guess you shown proof that it isnt the end.

Thanks Brian x
"I need you to recover . 'Cause I can't make it on my own!" - Faunts

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theHTreturns...
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   Posted 4/15/2011 5:50 AM (GMT -6)   
keep up the good work brian. with compassion, jamie
SCHIZO-AFFECTIVE DISORDER, EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER, BORDERLINE TYPE -AXIS 2 , BI-POLAR AFFECTIVE DISORDER AXIS 1

REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

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   Posted 4/15/2011 8:24 AM (GMT -6)   
Thanks Brian for this post.

It is always good to hear about somebody getting better. And to have hope that you have given us. Thank you again Brian.

Keep up the good work.

Hugs, Karen
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BrianJ (bne)
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Date Joined Nov 2003
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   Posted 4/16/2011 1:40 AM (GMT -6)   
It strikes me a tad funny...odd...that I am being thanked for this post 'cause if it wasn't for this site, the people here and other similar resources I wouldn't be posting on such a positive note.

It's you folks, everyone on this site and all the others who give of their time and their hearts to help people like us that deserve the thanks. Without such courageous and selfless people, I would surely have not survived so long.

Thank you.

Humbled,

Brian
Finish each day and be done with it.
You have done what you could.
Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can.
Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.


- Emerson

Depression, Fibromyalgia, Colitis, Tourettes, Bipolar, degenerative disc, sciatica, IBS, anxiety, RLS

theHTreturns...
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   Posted 4/16/2011 2:08 AM (GMT -6)   
with much healing compassion to everyone brian. i hear you.
SCHIZO-AFFECTIVE DISORDER, EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER, BORDERLINE TYPE -AXIS 2 , BI-POLAR AFFECTIVE DISORDER AXIS 1

REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.
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