two years ago i broke, wound up at the ER in a state of total dread,distress,and overcome by fear. my mind would not stop with the panic, and it took over the body. all the life energy seemed to be gone. had not eaten in weeks except for supper food shakes. at the time i had been taking a very small dose of clonopin. i was admitted and treated with seroquil. four four days i just kept sliding off my chair. after discharge i was treated with seroquil and 2mg xanax three times a day and trazadone. after a short time we stopped the seroquil and cut way back on the xanax, they added zoloft and busbar. i lived like this for 20 months till one day i totaly freaked out. stopped the zoloft and busbar and atarax and remained on just .5 mg of xanax and 100mg of trazodone and of course the methadone. the thing is that by the end the day after all the struggling i'd start to feel like myself, energy would return, i'd get hungry and even happy enough to call a friend pay a bill.on days that were worse i'd tough it out till it was late enough to take my bedtime dose of xanax and trazodone. the trazadone really gave me relief although an hour later it got hard going up the stairs. problem! morning come and so did dread gagging total lack of strength, panic, fear.you should feel better after a nights sleep. no desire to eat maybe a little water,try to distract oneself with tv, grab some pillows and hang for dear life. take the methadone at 10 am sometimes it got me going, not lately, i start feeling so distressed i start walking round and around my house praying, always praying,do you notice that as soon as you feel ok you stop praying? 15 yrs ago after back sugery and six months of stupidity i got on methadone 100mgs, over the last two yrs down to 30 mgs. is there any way out of this hell? 24hrs ago itook my first dose of cymbalta at 12 noon after two hours of some weirdness i laid down and slept all afternoon, eve and night, getting up afew times to snack and change rooms, took my bedtime xanax and trazadone no methadone. am,little better, stressed about
being so sluggish, fuzzy, and still can't eat. start walking
praying, i can't just zombie out all day even if it is less distressing. should i take it tonight? where is the energy i'm reading about
? how many days to effect a change? will i be able to discontinue the xanax and trazadone? anybody relate?
Post Edited (devotee) : 4/26/2011 6:40:21 PM (GMT-6)