Hello and welcome, I find this forum helpful just to write out to people you know will read your troubles... and maybe get some good answers!
Are you spiritual at all? Cuz, I know for me, I struggled with depression for like oh....10 years, but have overcome it now for 5 years and counting (I doubt very highly I'll ever struggle with it again). And, it was cuz I asked God to help me change the way I THINK. You'll never stop feeling sad until you change the way you think.....(about circumstances, life, etc.) And sometimes you have no idea that it may be something VERY simple that's causing your depression. For me, God helped me see that I was being stiffled by imaginary thoughts that people wanted and expected me to ACT and BE a certain way. Once I realized (changed the way I thought) that I can be me (mean sometimes, say "no" to people, confront someone for treating me poorly, forget about birthdays, let people down, not wear makeup one day, not take a shower, whatever - none of us are perfect!), but once I began following my heart (with much prayer) I immediately became "free" and the results were astounding, it took faith cuz, people that are depressed think usually that bad things will result if they do "such and such" and that's not usually true.
Anyway, I don't know exactly what your going through or if you can relate in anyway....just don't give up hope, cuz there's always always always hope. I am living proof. I was very suicidal, attempted it many times...... Now, that's like "Who was that person?" It feels like a different life.
Love and hugs,
P.S. Feel free to email me personally if you want, I love helping people cuz I was helped myself!!! I've found the key to true joy is helping others. (you just need to click on my username and it'll bring you to my profile)
Blondie37_Fibromyalgia_terrible back of neck/shoulder area pain_degenerative discs_chronic pain for 15 years_new to pain management_can't take ibuprofin due to taking too many_have taken and tried everything from antidepressants to morphine to lyrica to muscle relaxers to xanax to valium to celebrex, etc.