i have decided to keep posting..
i am in tears right now and im trying to stop but i cant. i feel helpless cuz of my nana and i feel alone and worthless. if she dies i will die inside. my heart will stop. i havent been sleeping well for the last week or so. i had managed my tears OK before then but they have all just built up and come down. i dont really know what to say apart from i feel like absolute **** !