hey everyone i know this is gonna b long buutt oh weell. anyway last august i started highschool. in gradeschool i had never had been popular or anything but ppl liked me and i mean i got invited places. i was normal i guess. then i started highschool and i wanted to branch off a little from my gradeschool friends. but i did not want to ditch them or leave them or anything. anyway i meant a new friend and we instantly became bffs. but i noticed my other friends wer getting pissy and jealous with me. and i told my new friend and she convinced me to drop them and start all over with new friends. and i did. after that everything seemed great, i had lots of friends, many bfs, and i was happy. but then my bff turned against me and started rumors about
me. one rumor got so bad a girl stabbed me with an xacto knife (its sorta like a scapel, and its used in art) anyway after that i completely cut off all connections with that girl and concentrated on my other friends. again everything seemed fine and my ex-bff was just a bad memory. then out of now where my other friends slowly started to like me less and less and i had no idea wat i did (i still dont) and so i again tried to make more friends. im a horseback rider so i concentrated on my stable and riding friends. this seemed to b a good substitute and it still is. but now im feeling extremely alone at school i still sit with my old friends but im still the outsider in the group. im kind of lik that "fat friend" or something. i even talked to my old gradeschool friends to try and get on good grounds with them again but idk how that went :( now im just feeling unwanted and alone. the only reason i posted this is to ask for advice or if anyones gone through this b4 and just to talk to ppl.