I feel so lonely

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Date Joined May 2011
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   Posted 5/3/2011 6:31 PM (GMT -6)   
I really don't even know why I'm writing this, no joke. I'm not one to just go on and tell people how much I feel like my life sucks. Considering people have things going on that's a lot worse than what I have going on; which is really nothing. People have lost loved ones, I haven't. People suffer from life changing diseases that are killing them, I'm not. I have money, enough to get by. I get taken care of by the military, and yet I feel so lonely, I feel like my heart is in tiny pieces. I have a lot of people I can talk to, that I get a long with at work, but it's that extra step of trusting people with what's really going on with me. Trusting people is giving them the power to hurt you in the end, and I have a major problem with trying that. I as a means to deal with my pain and I know it's wrong but a lot of the time I just can't help it. I don't know what to do, I don't feel like I can talk to anyone  I hate myself with a passion, I'm weak and stupid. I have really self-esteem issues and that makes me even more pissed off at myself. I even see two mental health personnel, take anti-depression medicine and ambien to help me sleep. My only friend who knows like everything about me is leaving, and I feel like I'm back at square one when I was deployed and all this stuff started happening. I just don't know what to do, I feel lost. My heart feels like it's in pieces and no matter how much I try to piece it together, it feels it impossible. I cry myself to sleep every night, and   I don't believe in at all but sometimes I'm just so tired of feeling the way I do everyday. I just don't know what to do anymore...it feels like just to much, and I'm so tired of everything.
Edit:  I am sorry for the edit but we are not allowed to discuss self harm, harming others or suicide in the forums.  Kindly,

Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 5/3/2011 5:37:13 PM (GMT-6)

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Date Joined Apr 2007
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   Posted 5/3/2011 6:41 PM (GMT -6)   
I am so sorry to read of your pain and sadness.  I do understand loneliness but at this time I would like you to ask for more help then you are getting through the military. 
I am going to post some info for you.  I do not know if these numbers work for you as you are in the military. Never be afraid to reach out.
National Suicide Hotline
1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.

Helpful Web Sites:
Suicide Hotlines (listed by state)
Suicidal.com (includes Suicide Crisis Center and Depression and Suicide)
With gentle hugs,
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   Posted 5/3/2011 9:47 PM (GMT -6)   
sending healing compassion your way kely. jamie.


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Date Joined May 2011
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   Posted 5/3/2011 9:59 PM (GMT -6)   
I know how you feel I have been there where people have repeatedly hurt me after I trusted them with personal info. You can still call and email your friend. That is what I did when I moved away to another state.
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