Good Morning and welcome to HealingWell,
I am sorry to read of your problems. I agree with Jamie, can you get counseling to help you deal with all your issues and help you find a way to accomplish your goals ? It may seem hopeless right now but there is an answer out there and with help you will find it.
I could not participate in your poll as I do not understand all the abbreviations. Sorry.
Hold your head up high and keep on moving forward one step at a time.