Thankyou for your replies and advice! Please excuse my prior post was manic and went overboad, it did feel good to get it all out.
The scariest thing about my dad moving here would have been popping this bubble its safe here, no fighting or screaming or conflict (in our little family lol). But my parents have a lot of unresolved issues and no longer do i wish to play mediator. Also my brothers at least the younger 3 caught the worst of the end and continueing process they do not deserve to be put in positions worse than they are now. Spies, pawns, bargaining chips the whole bit. And i refuse to let my daughter to be exposed to any of the latter. So thankyou for letting me know that the decision was okay.
Its funny how those sorts of things can haunt you in adulthood and infringe on your life so dramatically. Don't get me wrong i have made my own mistakes and caused plenty of my own hardships. And i am trying my best not to place blame. The tape player in my head just won't shut off.
Rome wasn't built in a day lol.
on a cheerful note just saw the cutest little red finches out the window. silly things like that lift my spirits how bout y'all lol?
Hope all is well on your end!!!!!!! LulaMae