Alright well I've been totally frustrated with just about everything lately. My financial situation=crap, credit situation=crap, work situation=crap, sleep situation=crap, relationship situation=crap, friends & social situations=ok (but feel nothing when I do go out).
Was debating the past couple of weeks what I should do as far as therapy is concerned. I finally came to the conclusion with the therapist tonight that I don't want to continue with therapy anymore. I am having financial problems and honestly I am not seeing any results with therapy at all. I've been giong for a year and a half now and seeing all these different therapists, and I feel like I got the gist of all of the therapy. Do whatever it is you need to do regardless of how you feel, don't be scared and let things hold you back. Well ok, I've been doing that lately and things have been getting a LITTLE better.
I still feel completely frustrated and lost though, have no idea which way my life is going right now. I don't have any sort of career path set in stone, I am really starting to get upset about my current job and am looking for something else that I might be interested or better suited for. Have no idea what that could be possibly be though.
I'm getting a little worried that maybe without therapy that things could get really bad and dark for me again. At one point I was very bad and had those bad thoughts, this was a solid year ago though. I'm hoping those days are behind me and that I've learned from some of the things I've picked up in this past year of off and on therapy. I think it's about time I take a stand and try to do this on my own and try and just be more open with my family and maybe they can help me out with things.
Just really hoping I made the right decision here, it's so hard for me to make up my darn mind and stick to a decision. Guess that's just a side effect of all this darn self-induced stress though