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thatgirl2011
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   Posted 5/4/2011 10:33 PM (GMT -6)   
I'm not exactly sure of what happened....but I think I may have temporarily lost my mind today....This guy that cares a lot about me...We have been friends for a very long time...he has been there for me thru everything...all the days I was at my lowest and didn't care if I woke up or not...he made me get out of bed and go out. Going thru this divorce...he has stayed up with me while I cried until 4 in the morning just to make sure I was okay....well, I was at his house when it happened. I can't remember what he said, but whatever it was really got to me.....then all I saw was red. I hit him close to 10 times....in the head, the face, the chest, and the back....I slammed him against the wall....I hurt the only friend in the world I still have that cares about me.....Not physically, but emotionally.....I feel like I'm at my lowest now.....like I have hit my breaking point. I'm in a tunnel and can't see the light at the end........but after things calmed down, he hugged me and let me know he still cares. Am I a completely horrible person?? Or do I just need help?? How do I make this up to him?

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 5/5/2011 9:08:19 AM (GMT-6)


theHTreturns...
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   Posted 5/4/2011 10:49 PM (GMT -6)   
no your not. you just have a lot going on in your mind. may i suggest counselling, i am in therapy and it really helps. you will learn techniques to guide with certain issues. you have been brave in coming on hw and telling us of your situation, keep being brave and seek some assistance. i am sure that with help your relationship will be fine, and it will show your bf that by seeking help you really do care. jamie.
SCHIZO-AFFECTIVE DISORDER, EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER, BORDERLINE TYPE -AXIS 2 , BI-POLAR AFFECTIVE DISORDER AXIS 1

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thatgirl2011
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   Posted 5/4/2011 11:11 PM (GMT -6)   
he actually isn't my boyfriend...but i do know that he cares for me in that way. I am dealing with a divorce right now and I think I need to get past it before I move on...I have been through counseling before and it truly helped me. However, I currently have no income and can not afford it. thank you for your advice, it helps to hear someone else tell me that I haven't completely lost my mind.

theHTreturns...
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   Posted 5/4/2011 11:28 PM (GMT -6)   
far from it. jamie.
SCHIZO-AFFECTIVE DISORDER, EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE PERSONALITY DISORDER, BORDERLINE TYPE -AXIS 2 , BI-POLAR AFFECTIVE DISORDER AXIS 1

REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

thatgirl2011
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   Posted 5/4/2011 11:33 PM (GMT -6)   
thank you so much :) i think i can rest in piece now

thatgirl2011
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   Posted 5/4/2011 11:35 PM (GMT -6)   
peace***

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   Posted 5/5/2011 9:10 AM (GMT -6)   
Thatgirl,

Please get some counseling to get your thought free of depression. It would really help, especially when struggling with a divorce. Know that we all care about you here. You have friends here now. We will be your support system. Forget about what happened with your friend. You just lost conttol, but get the counseling so it doesn't happen again.

Hugs to you, Karen
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thatgirl2011
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   Posted 5/5/2011 10:46 AM (GMT -6)   
I will work on getting counseling, thank you
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