I have fought a good fight..but I dont know how to keep on keeping on..Ive become so overwhelmed I feel as though I may be slipping and will not survive this..too long of a history/story for anyone to want to read really..but Im raising 4 yr old grandson whom, is why I am trying to hold on and continue fighting depression and maybe recover. I must be honest, I have been close to tonight, which is why I am here..Im hanging on for him.2 kids of divorce, father abandoned..young adults now. I have a daughter who is unstable mentally and is mentally,verbally abusive to me.Im raising her son, she has a new baby she's raising, but Im not sure how long..My now husband and I are financially supporting all..mostly.Shes been with an mentally abusive bf for 4 yrs.They break up everyday.Today they arent togehter.Her new baby's bio dad is mia and cant be found for support,etc. She got her own place but quit her job.Now says going to work somewhere else but in the meantime, expects us to help.Of course we do for the baby's sake and the fact I cannot live with her again. My son was alcoholic from teens,I believe, then joined svc.Deployed to war @ 19.Came back 2.5 yrs later with PTSD and medically discharged.Has lost every job hes had since then, except this one. He self medicates with alcohol & now drugs..Now progressed to anything except herion I think..Just got on his own, but almost was fired dur to recent setback. He was sober for mos, then daughter let him know her x bf just attacked her,raped her, etc.In turn,my son goes off deepend and almost lost job but was on I believe,drug binge.If he loses job, he loses his apt;She could be evicted if we dont help with rent. If shes evicted she will be homeless and wnt go to shelter, she will go from place to place dragging her baby with her. I wont be able to handle it and end up raising another child, which I dont have to strength to do I dont think.She's dabbled in drugs herself. wont be good.My husband may be right but has cut them off financially and Im in a panic. I dont want to enable but my sons really and daughter has a baby.I offered to take baby but she wont have it. dhr is a joke. Unless she's harming with evidence, you go through the chain and nothing done..My husband has been drinking alot and holds resentment toward me..not his kids,etc.He has been good and helped but doesnt stay up wondering if sons in a ditch, or calling to ck..or making sure baby is taken care of, etc..Im not functioning well and overwhelmed.I have been physically ill and questioning my own mental state @ this point. I know it sounds Jerry Springer but I really am a normal, God fearing, good mother..or thought I was. My husband drinking, I wont survive. I was raised in that and I will be a single grandmother if something doesnt change. I was raised by an alcoholic and I snap when my husband drinks. I told him it was a deal breaker with me before we married. I had a feeling it wasnt true but he stopped before we married due to the problems it caused us. I waited 10.5 yrs to marry him. I married him in March..this is May. He's drinking and said he really doesnt care if it bothers me and becomes hateful when he drinks..cant take much. Im on the edge..HELP?
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