Hey bubblerejax, just read your comment and it seems as though your just looking for someone to talk to about
your problems ..you say he doesn't wanna be near me is this some boyfriend thats causing you pressure to be something you are not? like happy all the time? that makes you wanna hide away from. Its quiet natural in life to push people away from us for whatever reason usually this is from fear of something. Is there anything in your life that you are afraid of? which is causing you to pull back from people?