i feel that im nothing

Inoue- I have had similar feelings in the past. And I can assure you that your family does care. If not your family, someone that is important to you. I think the depression just takes hold and you can't see things as they truly are, and you don't see people as the loving caring people they are. It is the nature of depression.

Years ago I remember having Christmas with my extended family it was a terrible time for me. I remember going home and laying in bed crying about it. It was so painful my stomach hurt and I was thinking "why don't they love me, what have I done". Several months after that my grandmother called me to try and get me to see a counselor. She mentioned Christmas and said taht was when everyone got so worried about me. I seemed so distant that day and they didn't know how to get me to realize how much they love me. That conversation was very telling and I went shortly thereafter to a counselor. It has been much better ever sense. I have not had those feelings again.

I feel so guilty for being depresses myslef, when I know there are so many people out there that are way more depressed than I. it is really hard to see past what we think. Inoue, there is sombody iut there that cares about you, we do, and if not your family(and they probably do) there may even be a stranger out there that you have not met yet that care about you. I know its hard for you to see this now, please see your school counsler ASAP.
I get the same feelng you have very often, i am 36 married with 2 children, they have special issues, and sometimes its very overwhemling, and I feel I am letting them down, and my husband, I often feel they would be better off without me, but God reminds me thats not true. I pray constantly, I am on zoloft, but these days its not cutting it anymore. Prayer seems to be the only real source of comfort I can find, and thats probbly is ho its suppose to be, I guess. You can tell from my tone I too am also very depressed, but again I feel very gulty for feeling this way, when there are so many others out way worse off than me..
I hope you find comfort Inoue from someone, somewhere, somehow, and very qucikly, my prayers are with you...Love...Sheryl

Thanks Liza, you are an inspriation to me, I post in the Lupus forum mainly, and have been real down latlely and decided to see whats going on in the depression forum, as I am depressed. I hope God is comforting you as well in your sorrow, I did print out you poem for Michael, I really liked it. You are at great role model for this forum, I am glad you found healingwell, I have never found a better bunch of people. I continue to pray for you.....Love....Sheryl

I think you may be putting too much pressure on yourself. Sometimes we tend to take on more than we can handle and as for your feeling "left out in the cold" can be a sign of feeling inadequate. If you have done nothing wrong to make friends and others feel like you describe, then you may have to seek counseling. Sounds like you are too young to have these issues already at such a tender age. Please thank about it.

 

H2LF

I have felt that way many times. That is why I love these people here. They truly understand and are my friends and repsond because they want to not out of obligation. Please continue to come back and share what is going on inside. It really helps me.