i feel that im nothing

Post Edited By Moderator (Admin) : 3/14/2005 9:35:50 AM (GMT-7)

Inoue- I have had similar feelings in the past. And I can assure you that your family does care. If not your family, someone that is important to you. I think the depression just takes hold and you can't see things as they truly are, and you don't see people as the loving caring people they are. It is the nature of depression.

Years ago I remember having Christmas with my extended family it was a terrible time for me. I remember going home and laying in bed crying about it. It was so painful my stomach hurt and I was thinking "why don't they love me, what have I done". Several months after that my grandmother called me to try and get me to see a counselor. She mentioned Christmas and said taht was when everyone got so worried about me. I seemed so distant that day and they didn't know how to get me to realize how much they love me. That conversation was very telling and I went shortly thereafter to a counselor. It has been much better ever sense. I have not had those feelings again.

...so lucky to get over the depression .....its hard to do so....my friends they hate me knw of being depresed and get sick of me and want me to leave ...wish if one of em can hear my worries and i cant ind anyone.

I feel so guilty for being depresses myslef, when I know there are so many people out there that are way more depressed than I. it is really hard to see past what we think. Inoue, there is sombody iut there that cares about you, we do, and if not your family(and they probably do) there may even be a stranger out there that you have not met yet that care about you. I know its hard for you to see this now, please see your school counsler ASAP.
I get the same feelng you have very often, i am 36 married with 2 children, they have special issues, and sometimes its very overwhemling, and I feel I am letting them down, and my husband, I often feel they would be better off without me, but God reminds me thats not true. I pray constantly, I am on zoloft, but these days its not cutting it anymore. Prayer seems to be the only real source of comfort I can find, and thats probbly is ho its suppose to be, I guess. You can tell from my tone I too am also very depressed, but again I feel very gulty for feeling this way, when there are so many others out way worse off than me..
I hope you find comfort Inoue from someone, somewhere, somehow, and very qucikly, my prayers are with you...Love...Sheryl

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***Take Care.....Sheryl***

Don't feel guilty that you are sad, its a normal human emotion,

Talk to someone, even if you dont think they want to talk to you, they do. If you feel you cant talk, write it down and leave the letter somewhere they can find it.

There are thousands of people out there that will listen and thousands more that care.

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Hug Your Children Everyday, and Tell Them That You Love Them

Thanks Liza, you are an inspriation to me, I post in the Lupus forum mainly, and have been real down latlely and decided to see whats going on in the depression forum, as I am depressed. I hope God is comforting you as well in your sorrow, I did print out you poem for Michael, I really liked it. You are at great role model for this forum, I am glad you found healingwell, I have never found a better bunch of people. I continue to pray for you.....Love....Sheryl

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***Take Care.....Sheryl***

I know how you all feel. I have one very close friend, she is the only one who knows about my anxiety and depression. This means that she's the only person i talk to about it. After talking to her about my worries i always feel extremly guilty. I hate to think she has to carry my worries to. But without her i'd be lost.

The best thing to do is not only talk to your friends about your problems but let them talk to you too. Sometimes i decide not to talk to her anymore. It's a very stupid decision to make cause i end up bottling everything up, it's good to talk to somone.

I also tell myself not to put myself down. I'm always doing that!!!! You have to think about the things you are good at.

I too had trouble finding someone to talk to. People generally don't want to hear negative things or other peoples problems cause they have their own to deal with or feel it will bring them down. Have you thought about going to counseling or a therapist. That is what I ended up doing. It is their job to listen and help. A few weeks into it I stopped being problematic to my few friends and family because I know every week I have someone who I can talk to about my problems. They since have been more interested in hanging out with me since I don't burden them so much. It's human nature. I wish you the best and along with jk prayer and religion has helped me tremendously. Stay strong. things will get better..

I have felt that way many times. That is why I love these people here. They truly understand and are my friends and repsond because they want to not out of obligation. Please continue to come back and share what is going on inside. It really helps me.

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We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.