My story is pretty usual.
-I had this fantastic boyfriend. We went to all these fun places and we were alwayss together. No matter what. I loved being with him, and to what he told me, He loved speding time with me. I never ever wanted anything to go wrong. I felt like I was living a fantasy. And then we just started randomly fighting over the stupidist things. There was a fight practicly everyday. Now being the emotionaly challenged person that I am, this tore my heart to peices. Finallyyy we agreed to stop fighting because it was ridiculous and we loved each other way to much. about a week later my nerves were shot down with him fighting with me about something that was posted on my facebook. I was with a friend, and he was with his friends. Bingo. First mistake. I had told him that friday that he should spend a little time with the guys because he hadnt for a while. Unfortunalty, that neverr ends up well. So with his raging attitude and my high temper we went at it. And we ended up breaking up. 8months and two weeks. My longest relationship ever. The most serious relationship I had ever been in. The person that I loved so much, was gone. Just like that.
Now, its like i feel so empty. But yet my crying has been so little. I keep saying I haven't processed it yet, I havent fully understood that the best thing that ever happened to me was no longer by my side smiling at me, kissing me, telling me he loved me. But even though I havent cried so much, I still feel like an empty soul. Like I just. Stopped. I get angry at things he does now. But then I'll be upset and cry. I want to convince myself I dont care, but yet the next thing you know I'm listening to sappy romance songs about broken hearts and being lied to.
-Bottem line. I need some feedback.
What can I do to make myself feel like I dont care about what he does.
Also I am never hungry now. I try my best to eat as much as I can, but it's like theres a voice inside my head telling me I dont need food.
Please reply back with thoughts, questions, suggestions.
Post Edited (Ser16) : 5/11/2011 4:18:02 PM (GMT-6)