well here it is another saturday night, alone, lonely, and depression is at it's highest. Can't really go anywhere, some of my friends are on dart leagues, but at bars,so I want to go,but don't want to be in the bar atmosphere. Only leading to drinks, and drunks and alot of bs. So I'm grateful for the roof over my head, my health for today ok. But really lonely for company, family and a life as i use to know it. Always working and always there for my daughter willing and able to help her with my grandson. My daughter is a single mom who works full time with taking care of my grandson alone since i got sick and had to leave the state. we're now 3,000 miles apart. Now his dad has had a horrific mri last week.
With 3 herniated disks in his lower back which has left him home, unable to work and unable to see his son on the weekends. My grandson took it really hard and of course my daughter stressing over child support. Affraid he won't be able to keep up with payments. It's always something.With my illness when stress hits me it puts automatic pain in my legs, and my brain goes into a tailspin.trying to stay positive, and optimistic, but darn what else??? Ya know like taking 3 steps forward and then bam!!! 5 steps back. just wonder will it ever get easier????? Well hello out there to all the lonely depressed people tonight hoping you all a good weekend and no sorrows. Take care and thanx for listening to me crying.