They say I'm a moody type. But i say that i feel more depressed than positive.
I was used to be a successful person. I run my own food business. When i was hired as a Sous Chef, i let my wife run the business. I have one lovely daughter who also loves cooking. I was so active, that after work, i run straight to my little restaurant and help my wife.
But suddenly, everything have change. It was like, the time have just stop ticking. I feel something that i dont understand at all. But i remember in the past that i was like this. I believe I was 12 yrs old at that time. My mom use to say that i was lazy cause he always found me in my bed sleeping.. I remember that i will hide in my closet in the morning and my mom thought that i was already in school. When my mom goes to work, i will run out of my closet, skip my school, and go to sleep. I did that for 7 days, until the principal phoned my mom.
And now, I resigned at my work, and my wife warned me that she will close our business if I will continue like this. I'm renting a room alone. I have lock myself here for already 30 days now. I only go out to buy me some foods and other stuff.
I have meds before, My doc said that I have a bipolar disorder. I made some research, it is somehow the same but far away from what I am feeling right now. I don't know if this is more than Bipolar. My doc is taking his seminar abroad. He said it will only take 3 days. But its already 7 days and He have not called me. I called his office but the reply was always answering machine. I don't know what to do now.
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