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   Posted 5/20/2011 7:43 AM (GMT -6)   
can someone explain to me why i am so scared to get happy in my mind if  i am happy something bad is going to happen this is not helping  for some reason i have to think negertive an hope for thr postive  every one dezerves to be happy

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   Posted 5/20/2011 8:28 AM (GMT -6)   
I had that problem and it was because I was so use to being sad. When I was happy, I would feel guilty about it. I guess I didn't feel I deserved to be happy. But in time you get use to it and the fears go away.

I hope that you can relax and enjoy being happy, it just takes practice.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 5/20/2011 9:33 PM (GMT -6)   
same as karen all i knew was sadness. keep strong, jamie


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   Posted 5/21/2011 6:28 AM (GMT -6)   
Karen is so right in that arena. When I did finally start feeling better, I kept waiting for the bottom to fall out. I think when you feel crappy for an extended period of time and then it lifts you are just not use to it. It is good but also kind of scary if that makes sense. All I can say is enjoy it and pray it last.


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   Posted 5/25/2011 4:07 AM (GMT -6)   
hey parz, i understand where your coming from. maybe your worried if you let yourself be happy your setting yourself up for always seems when we take 5 steps forward, bam something happens and we take 10 back. I was always afraid to tell people good news ,cause i new i jinx myself. well let me tell you that's bs. live in your happy moment. don't worry about yesterday or tomorrow. live for the now. i know, alot easier sain than done. but sometimes it really works. there is so much crap going on in my life that i'm powerless over. my children, my mom which i'm forced to live with because i had to get this gnarly muscle disease anddddddd had to come and live with her. omg. it's so hard. for her too. we always had such a better relationship 3,000 miles away. i feel like a burden, worthless, always worried about my disease, what will happen to me if i loose my ssdi. my insurance. it's mind boggling. i try to stay busy, but night time is the hardest for me. can't turn my brain off. it's 2am i'm still up so unsettled and just want to run run run happy and don't feel guilty about it. you deserve happiness in this crazy world. take care keep posting, it feels good to let it out. peace andd love, sue  rolleyes

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Date Joined Apr 2011
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   Posted 5/28/2011 3:58 PM (GMT -6)   
I have been living in my second biploar episode of my life for the past 5 months -- pure hell. When I started to get some relief from new medication, I actually started to have anxiety attack because I was soo not used to feeling "normal"! I have been told that its totally normal to feel anxiety when coming back from feeling so bad for so long.

Since being down sucks soo much, I have learned from others, that we have to PUSH with all our might to bring ourselves back up! I had to stop wallowing in my deep depression because that made things worse and keep myself super busy, I had to make myself get up out of bed and get to work and no matter how I felt, I had to make myself work, and stay so busy.

I bet it will help you as it has me to get on this forum and talk to others suffering and overcoming just like we are, the encouragment I have found has done wonders. We done have to swim in depression, when we are feeling less depressed than we were yesterday, we have to be excited about that not think that its a negative thing.

Keep yourself majorly busy with anything that you have ever thought was fun, or any people you have ever enjoyed being around, we cannot let depression win!

God Bless, and keep posting we are here to support you!
Bipolar II - Second Opinion Diagnosed 4/11/2011
Fibromyalgia - Diagnosed 12/2009
Zoloft 1996-2002?
Paxil 20mg 2002?-2011
Paxil 30mg 1/28/11-4/4/11 -- back down to 20mg :(
Switching Meds:
4/11/11 Paxil 20mg; Cymbalta 30mg nightly
4/18/11 Paxil 10mg; Cymbalta 60mg nightly
4/24/11 No Paxil; Cymbalta 60mg nightly
Depakote upped to 750mg 5/17/11
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