I've been sleeping with a married man; sneeking round; making innuendos when he's in the office. It's got to a point where I don't just want him to be someone I sleep with =(. I have depression and not been takin my tablets which i know is stupid. I'm so annoyed at myself for ever gettin into this situation. My days seem to hang on wether he calls me or not and if he doesnt I always try and think of reasons why I have to call him just so I can talk to him. I hate it. He always says to be honest with him if I want to stop; I do but I know what he's like; he'll be hurt and hold the whole situation against me. He knows a lot about
me and it scares me that he's got that power over me I feel he's the type of guy that if I tried to break it off with him he'd be hurt and angry with me. Or he'd do things to hurt me deliberately. I really don't know what to do. My heads so messed up right now. I know what I want to do and I know what the right thing to do but I just don't know. Also as added pressure a mutual friend of ours asked me yesterday if I was seeing this guy behind his wifes back and i had to lie about
it. This guy is a lot older than me and I can't talk to anyone about
it; I'm distancing myself from everyone including my family. I really don't know what to do. I don't want to hurt him
but I'm destroyed inside.