hi meimnotme, first of all i'm not sure if your a chick or a dude. but.....if you are a girl, young lady, woman, i strongly suggest getting your hormones tested. sometime with women our hormone levels are so out of wack that we don't realize our emotions. as far as blacking out i have a friend who is going through the same problem and doesn't know why. she has seen a neurologist, md, etc: still no diagnosis. I think it's stress, hormones and fatigue. she's had ra since a child and a few other disorders since a teen. she's my son'e girlfriend and just sunday they had an altercation which led to her anger letting out on him punching him in the hed. Physical abuse is not acceptable either way, woman to man or man to woman. I'm living in a very volative relationship with my mom. She is full of hate and rage and is extremely controlling. I'm with her because i got sick in nov/09 with an muscle disease called polymyositis. my whole world took a 180 and now stuck with her. it truely sucks. i've always been very independent. a free spirit, kids over all the time, cooking, working, happy and loving being a grandma. Thank god my daughter and grandson are coming in july. i can't wait. talk about anger, somedays i just want to walk around my mom's house and just destroy everyting.when i get funky like that i walk. walk walk walk. or call a good friend.one time i had road rage and blacked out followed this chick who cut me off and before i knew it came to when she was biting my arm as i was choking her neck. she got out of her escalade and coldcocked me with her pocketbook in my face in front of her little boy along with really foul language. i blacked out. well it went to court i got the fine, because i followed her so i was in the wrong. and that's when i was on an antidepressant. effexor. so much for that drug.
try and find your zen. meditate. walk, run. read. post on this forum it's really healthy to get it out. hope i hit a cord. stay well. peace and love. su