Thank you guys, I really appreciate your thoughts and support. It's always nice to know that I am not alone in this mess. At this point, my biggest problem is that I don't trust anyone, to the point of paranoia I suppose. I guess that's not uncommon among us
. I'm going to consider taking the risperdal in addition to the lamictal, and I need to realize that, at this point, the possible benefits outweigh a lot of the risks, seeing as how I am barely functional. I'll address some of your comments in some jumbled fashion.
My doc seems set on the idea that adding an antidepressant is a bad idea (not that she is necessarily right) , I know that the cymbalta was the roughest one for me, at least all by itself. Looking back, i think it threw me into serious mania- talking really fast, clenching jaw, etc...I'm definitely closer to BP 2, since I don't have the really extreme mania, but I definitely have the swings. She suggested Depakote, I just freaked out about
the rash so much with the Lamictal, I don't know if I can handle it again.....I'm trying to cut back on the ativan a little bit, I know I'm super addicted to it at this point.....
Best of luck on cutting back the meds, Kitt. I hear that Lamictal is tough to get off of, but of course it can be done. Like everything else, you just have to go REALLY slow. I'm trying to keep my chin up, thankfully I'm having an alright night, and I hope you guys are too. Thanks again, lots of love