[Apologies, this might be confusing to read, I just wrote down everything as it came to me. I'll give details to anyone who cares enpugh to ask questions. Please help if you can.]
I've been so sad for a long time now, even where there wasn't any reason to be anymore.
Long story short: My girlfriend, the only person I've ever loved and ever will, claimed she was asexual from now on. A week or so later, we're miraculously back together, but I still feel really empty. I've just finished participating in a theatre production and it was so fun...I had actually promised myself I would afterwards if I still felt depressed, and yet it's almost as if I'm so cowardly I won't even inflict pain on myself as if I'd rather wallow in whatever this feeling is...I don't even know what happens when we die I'm not religious at all but it's not fair that no one knows, isn't there at least an END to it all?
Why are we here in the first place if we don't make a difference? Why can't I ever be satisfied with things when they're looking up for me anymore? I used to look back and go "man I've got it good, a girlfriend who loves me, a starring role in the Wizard of Oz (I was the Scarecrow), and good grades, how could it
Is there any way to feel better about
things and stop feeling or to know what happens when we die, or to at least get some actual advice and not the same old "go to your nearest church, God will help you" bit?
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 5/29/2011 6:08:18 AM (GMT-6)