Posted 3/15/2005 3:25 PM (GMT -7)
Ok, well I guess I blew it with my latest try at a relationship. And it only took me 3 weeks this time. I think that’s my new record. It’s one that I am not proud of, of course. Boy, I’ve gotten better at scaring people off. She won’t even return my calls now. And she accused me of driving by her house several times this past weekend. Which I have not done, but apparently the car looked like mine, but I swear, it wasn’t me. I haven’t been to her house since she last invited me.
So does anyone here know about Borderline Personality Disorders (BPD)? I know I shouldn’t self-diagnose, but so far from what I’ve read, I fit all of the criteria, almost to a T. Instability in self-image, mood, behavior and close personal relationships. Marked and frequent shifts to an empty lonely depression or to irritability and anxiety. It's all Me me me!
I'm looking into getting back into therapy, but having a little trouble finding one "In Network" for my insurance and someone taking on new clients. darn, finding help should not leave you needing more help. I’m at my wits end here.