New Topic Post Reply Printable Version
[ << Previous Thread | Next Thread >> ]

realdeal123
Regular Member


Date Joined Mar 2008
Total Posts : 43
   Posted 6/1/2011 2:42 PM (GMT -6)   
Well I am wondering if I should start posting in a new forum. I went to the therapist today and he diagnosed me with Anxiety and OCD that causes my depression. It is always over a fear that I have hurt my loved ones. This time it is HIV that is sticking with me. I was feeling all well after my negative test (for something I dont even know if I did) and then I started to look up symptoms again. I developed one HIVE on Monday and acutally had to go to the bathroom so bad I couldn't hold it and went in my pants which made me feel even more down as my son was with me and was wondering what the heck was going on. So I went into the docs today to look at a few welts on my legs that i thought were hives. He looked and stated they were mosquito bites :). I told him about the accident the other night and I was put right in front of my therapist. He mentioned my OCD is most likely driving my anxiety and and anxiety can cause very bad symptoms in the GI tract. Anyways, all in all a bad few days for me.

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42438
   Posted 6/1/2011 5:26 PM (GMT -6)   
I am sorry that you had this episode. If you feel comfortable posting here, you are more than welcome to continue, we also have an anxiety/panic forum also that you might want to check out. You can post in more than one. I don't think we have an ocd forum though.

I am sure that your days will get better. I hope that you do keep posting here. As you are a valued member.

Take care Realdeal.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

juje
New Member


Date Joined Jun 2011
Total Posts : 1
   Posted 6/1/2011 9:09 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Realdeal,

Sounds like a frustrating few days. I can really relate to your post! I suffered from symptoms of OCD for a long time, since I was 7. It got so bad that I would even retrace my car route daily to make sure I hadn't accidentally run over someone without noticing. Wow, I felt awful. I finally went to a therapist who said I was depressed with generalized anxiety, and my anxiety was manifesting as OCD. Antidepressants have helped the OCD, though my anxiety/depression is still there in pretty full force.

I hope you're feeling better soon. Take care of yourself!

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42438
   Posted 6/2/2011 6:49 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Juje,

Welcome to the depression forum and thank you for sharing.

Take care, keep posting.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

realdeal123
Regular Member


Date Joined Mar 2008
Total Posts : 43
   Posted 6/2/2011 4:17 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Getting by, I took the first step today of getting counseling. It was pretty amazing how much of a problem I actually have when we looked deeper into the issue. The counselor wants me to come 100% clean with my wife about my worries etc. She says the whole reason I am not coming clean is because I know it will be tougher to drink after opening up about it. I have been in a real low today and have not eaten but I am hoping tonight after opening up to my wife and asking for help that I will feel better and not feel like I am carrying around lies and lies. I love her so much and would never do anything to hurt her. That is my biggest scare. Love and prayers always and also thanks to juje for sharing your feelings. By sticking together things are better. I just need someone caring to talk to.

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42438
   Posted 6/2/2011 5:26 PM (GMT -6)   
I am so glad that you started counseling. These are the first steps on your healing journal. Carrying around secrets and lies is a heavy burden. I think you will follow the right path in life. One day at a time.

Take care, keep us posted.

Good luck tonight.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

realdeal123
Regular Member


Date Joined Mar 2008
Total Posts : 43
   Posted 6/2/2011 6:00 PM (GMT -6)   
What are your thoughts on telling my wife. I was thinking of showing her my posts on here. I am not sure if I should tell her or not yet. Thoughts? I think she will think I am crazy again but I do need some support.

realdeal123
Regular Member


Date Joined Mar 2008
Total Posts : 43
   Posted 6/2/2011 7:22 PM (GMT -6)   
Any feedback appreciated, going to chat with her in 30 mins when she gets home.

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42438
   Posted 6/2/2011 8:47 PM (GMT -6)   
I just read these posts, do let us know how it went. Remember you really didn't do anything wrong. Don't feel like you did.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

realdeal123
Regular Member


Date Joined Mar 2008
Total Posts : 43
   Posted 6/3/2011 7:23 AM (GMT -6)   
It went very bad and she is so upset with me. Not talking to me right now. Just keeps saying pick yourself up, what the f is wrong with you. It has been a long night and I am not sure what the next step is. She definitely will not support me in this. Although I have not done anything, I feel I have.

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42438
   Posted 6/3/2011 8:10 AM (GMT -6)   
Things will get back on track. Just give her some time to digest this. I don't think she realized right away bwhat your fear was. Drinking and not knowing what you did. I believe that she will come around and understand what you are trying to say to her. Just give her time and she will come around. Be patient. This isn't going to be the end of the world. She loves you.... Remember that.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

realdeal123
Regular Member


Date Joined Mar 2008
Total Posts : 43
   Posted 6/3/2011 8:23 AM (GMT -6)   
Ya, I know but she is upset that I promised to quit drinking then went away and got drunk. It has been an issue of and on for over 6 years. I hope that she see I have gone to get help. We chatted a bit this morning and she said she was tired of this (I have something to tell you) that causes her stress. She is also upset about the lies and why didnt I tell her sooner. I can understand her emotions as I have sunk into depression like this before. I did kiss a girl 6 years ago and told her about it so she still has trust issues with me, actually the girl kissed me and I pulled away. I just hope she can get over this. I did not want to get out of bed this morning and actually though of taking a bunch of sleeping pills last night but remembered it will get better and I have two lovely kids that need me.

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42438
   Posted 6/3/2011 8:41 AM (GMT -6)   
I am glad that you didn't take the pills. I am glad tht you are still with us. Time will tell in this. I think that things will get back to normal soon. Just give her time to process this and then talk to her some more. Let her know that you really care, and want to quit drinking. I think she will understand. I think she will realize that you were trying to deal with this on your own without worrying her. But it didn't work out that way. I am glad that you came clean and I think in time she will be too. Try not to let this get you down. Just be a good husband and no more drinking...

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies

realdeal123
Regular Member


Date Joined Mar 2008
Total Posts : 43
   Posted 6/3/2011 4:07 PM (GMT -6)   
Well again I am going to take a break from the forum. I think for my OCD, i have to put this out of mind for a while and work through this with my wife. Thanks again for all the thoughts, I will touch base time and time again and once fully recovered, I will return to hopefully offer assistance for others.

getting by
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42438
   Posted 6/3/2011 4:41 PM (GMT -6)   
take all the time you need, though we hate to see you go. But know that we will always be here for you. I hope that everything works out for you and your wife.

Hugs, Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia


fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression, allergies
New Topic Post Reply Printable Version
Forum Information
Currently it is Friday, June 22, 2018 5:07 PM (GMT -6)
There are a total of 2,974,379 posts in 326,171 threads.
View Active Threads


Who's Online
This forum has 161254 registered members. Please welcome our newest member, Bozorama.
286 Guest(s), 10 Registered Member(s) are currently online.  Details
tarawa, Gunner823, summer16, ArtAngel, The Dude Abides, Girlie, NiceCupOfTea, G-Ju, carnut, lapilot